Happiest Birthday I had in my life

Today's my birthday...
And It was my real "Happy" Birthday.. =)
Was having a lot of fun with my girls and my lover...
This year is the 1st time I'm having an important person celebrate with me..
And that's my lover.. Cute Dear =D

I was so damn happy... We're having a lot of fun..
During in the K-Room.. We had "Potato Chips War"!!!
I throw you and you throw me!! LOL.. So damn funny!!
Although its wasting food and making dirty...
But our "Clean Lady" help us clean up the K-Room.. xP
Yet!! They bought cakes for me and we shared it together =)

D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S!!

And after we Sang-K..
We went for shopping
I bought "Maruko" for my lover.. And we ate together.. Enjoyed =P
While we on the way to the bus stop and we see U48 (The bus we wanna ride on)
But 3 of our friends were missing...
We stand there and see the bus pass through us..
After the bus are gone..
Those "missing pets" only came out from the hole... =,=
For chasing the bus.. We went to another bus stop to wait the coming bus..
Yet we success to ride on..

We went to 168 for our dinner!!
And we ordered these......



Its all DELICIOUS TOO!!!
After dinner and we're having IQ jokes~ Play~ bla bla bla...
Well... Indeed I am having a lot of fun during my Birthday...
But....
The most happy is.. My lover is beside me and celebrate with me as well...
I am glad you are my dear...
Thank You! Dear..
I love you....

No one understand me....

It's been always alone by my self...
Even I have many friends and family with me....
But the feeling inside me... are yet still lonely....
Because no one can ever understand me...
The things I always do and say....
I did think for them before I say it..
Cause I scare I will hurt them...

My Father....
Ya.. He's a person that you can never imagine!!!
His attitude to me and mom... terrible bad!!!!
What he did is for his own!! But no one can see it...
It's been always... always...
Made mom and I very unhappy of him...
Cause he so like to argue when he's feeling nothing to do......
Those who know nothing about us... They keep complain about both me and my mom...
But my mom don't mind at all......
And I am having a little same as my mom...
It is too kind.. soft heart and easy get cheat...
Sometimes I really feel sad for my mom that she's having such husband!!
But she never regret... She never give up....
Right now.. What my mom doing is all for me... Cause she love me...
And ya.. Mom! I love you too...

And those lovers who I had before......
I always do all the best I can be...
But they don't care or mind at all....
Still... They are having other lover at outside...
It's hurt me deeply into my heart...
They always do something to hurt me....
But they will never admit what have they done.....

Still... When I'm always kind to all the people around me....
While I'm having a bad temper and "dirty words"..
They will say that "So this is the real you huh?"
They always never try to understand me.....
Then only look the bad side I'm having....
They don't even look the good side I'm having.....

Why?
Why no one can truly understand me?
I just need someone that can truly understand me.....
I don't wish to having such lonely life anymore...
I just want someone can really good to me and understanding me......

My families..

In my Dad's side family...
Most of them are very good in study...
Good scores and a lot of Grade A.
They are gentle speech and refined behavior..
Good in gaining money as well..

In my Mom's side family....
Most of them are very worst in study..
Low scores and bad Grade..
They are rude and vulgar language..
Not gain much money but a little shining star in their heart...

In my study level... I can tell that I'm just "half water"
Mean worst but not too worst... but still is worst (LOL)
I still can't works in the age right now..
I can't even get a good grade in my exams.....

Still, I'm having SPM on this year...
Duh!! I'm 90% sure that once i failed in my SPM!!
And my dad's side family some of them will "look down" on me...
But my mom's side family most of them will still cheer me up no matter what.... =)

I believe that many people will think that I'm having a bad attitude..
And they will think I'm a bad guy.. Gangster.. Bla this and bla that~
But what they seeing is the only surface..
They will never know the kind that hidden in the very bottom of my heart..
Only my mom's mother(外婆) understand and knowing me much more than the others...

Indeed. My dad side's of my cousins...
Some of them seems really good to me.... (surface)
But I know what are they trying to do on me...
I know it even they're trying to keep in silence...
And so I always told my mom about it... I will never tell my dad...
Because...
He will only keep say he's side family damn fucking good!!!
And he will only keep say mom's side family so damn fucking annoying..
Still, he keep say how bad is mom's side family members..
He just keep complaining on my mom's side family...
He didn't even trying to complain about his side's family...
I most remember one things that he said to me and mom...
"Of course my side's family most good la!!
All original things!! Not private!! Mom's side family leh?
Always the things that don't want to use anymore
then give it to us.. even give us...
It's also cheap things and private!!"

Hey dad!! How the hell that you can say something like this!!
Do you know what will mom feel if you say so?
Yes!! I admit that your side's family are very rich indeed!!
But don't forget those things are theirs!! Not yours!!
You are even different from em' all!!
You are not as rich as them!!! You are even worst than em'!!
You are much more rude than they all!!
You are a fucking bad husband to mom and you was a failure dad!!!!
You don't even taking good balance for both side family!!
Your selfishness make both me and mom unlike you!!
But you are damn lucky!! Because of my mom too kind..
That's why she will still be good to you no matter what..

Dad!! Try and use your fucking brain to think!!!
You are having a son and a good pretty kind wife...
You don't have to x at the outside (private case)
I act like nothing doesn't mean I don't know what you did at the outside!!!

Tsk... Anyhow..... I will only caring my SPM results right now...
Hardworking on it... even if I'm getting low scores and Grade....
I won't care how they "looking down" on me!!
Live my own way!! My target is just to take care of my mom and my lover in my life!!!
That's all!!!

The "taste" in our relationship

We together almost 5 months.
We tried sour,sweet,bitter,salt and spicy life in our relationship..
We also go through a lot of life experience.
We have been cried.. laugh.. angry.. sad and jealous.. to each other...

Firstly,
There is a part of memory I will never be forgotten.
It is about them... Christian.. (Cause of my lover are christian)
It's about their rules..
Because there is one of their rules... I am not able to be with my lover...
And they keep trying to tier us off. How cruel are they...
You guys keep said that we can't be together is because this is a rule of christian that sign by god.
Then the hell I am going to tell you right now!
Love mean Love. God will never tier off a part of true lovely couple.
And yet!! We are not doing bad things!!
So stop tier us a part... It's meaningless for you all..

Secondly,

You always follow your own way to do your things.

You will with friends and leave me alone.

Cause you said "I am still able to be live even I am without you" (Hurt when heard this)

My friend (Panda)..

He told me not to be so caring about you...

Have to put off you too... And try letting you to do whatever you want to do..

I will only get hurt if I too caring about you..

So..... I follow his way to treat you..

It's work well a lot..

Lastly,

The every time I seek sweet and salt for us...

But the every time you take sour and spicy in to our relationship...

Indeed. I will be very angry when you are doing spicy for me..

So I will sit down and think properly in my heart......

The 1st things it come out... Its telling me "The important that you are happy".

Sweetheart... I will still keep trying to be the greatest husband in your life... I swear.

And I will be the one most take care of you in your life too..

Horrible moment in School

This is the worst case ever in my school's life.
I never imagine that such things will happen in our school.
Even me, I'm also get frightened. Maybe I was as timid as a mouse.


So,the story start like this.....
Today,while all the students are in the assembly during the singing "Wilayah Persekutuan"
All of the Form 3 girl shout in a sudden.
Because one of them were suddenly seems like crazy and she's out of control.
And don't know why are she sitting down on the floor.


Then our school's assistant go on the stage and told us faster get back into our classrooms.
We all go back to our own classes and have to move faster.
After go up floor.. and reach our class..
We stand outside the corner and look down the assembly..
We saw one of our teacher ..
We can't see properly...
But....
As we can see.. She seems like she is crying and so sad...
Many teachers surround her and keep cheer her up..
Meanwhile, She fainted... (Hope she will be okay now)


Soon...
We heard many class also having girls screaming...

And we are very sure it's about that "thing" again...

At that moment I was very afraid...

I keep stick with my friends.. and keep hugging my bag.....

Meanwhile..

Teacher ask all of us to go down hall..

After went to the hall....

We separate for 2 lines.. 1 line for muslim students.. and 1 line for non-muslim students..

After 10 or 15 minutes something...

Teacher allow us(non-muslim) to go back home...

It's really a such horrible moment / day in our school...

Maybe I can't write well here...

But it is true that damn scary when it's happening in the reality..

我不是你的最好，但我会做到最好

不管是你的错，或是我的错。。。
我很肯定你会一口咬定说是我的错。。。
而且。。。
就算你被我骂了一大餐，你也是不会去更改自己。。。
（所谓好马不吃回头草） But you are still doing it
这次为了x事而吵架。。。。
因为你每次为了x而不理会我。。。。。
你能体会到你为了x而不理我的感受吗？
你每次说我没有体会你的感受。。。。
但我已经改变着了，而且我比以前更好了 (About YF)
经过了这次为了x而吵架。。。。
我已经想了很久。。。。。就算我多说你也是"左耳进右耳出"
所以我想通了。。。你要怎样的话，你就去吧。。。。
在怎样我也是管不了你一世。。。。
你要怎样。。。我都尊重你的指示。。。(Depends on situation)



***而且我也不想再被你气了，我这次真的被你气的很厉害。所以我要开始改变我自己变得更好而就算被你气。。。我也要对你好好和做到最好。就算是你错了，也是我逗回你开心。。。。虽然我不是你的最好，但我真的很想作为你心中的第一位。。。我会尽量做我的一切来让你开心。。。最重要的是。。我爱你

等待你

因为说好了今天去你家，所以放学后我去你班找你。

找了你后你却说你今天要留班，然后我就告诉你“我先回家，你做好的话记得打给我”

当我出了学校跟朋友去吃午餐时，突然想到我没问你记不记得我的手提号码。。。

因为我怕你不记得我的手提号码而联络不到我。。。。。。

所以我就连忙的吃饭，走回家冲凉，然后就赶着来学校等你。。。

我在校外自己一个人傻傻的等待你也期待着你会出来。。。

我从阴天等到雨天，雨天等到晴天。。。但你还是没有出来。。。

而且我玩电话也玩到没电了。。这次真的是整个傻佬这样在外面等你。。。

等到很久之后。。。

我的一位女生朋友(WT)过来问我“为什么等那么久？他还没出来啊？”

我说“是咯，等了很久。”

然后WT打电话给她爱人(KW)，因为他们在校内打球所以可以任进任出

WT告诉KW去找我的宝贝，因为我在外面等了很久了。。。

打了之后WT就先回了。。。。

不久后你终于出来了。。。。而且你的第一句就是“我还没有做完。”

我:“然后？”

你：“我还要继续做，不懂几点才回。”

然后，我就突然间很生气的什么也不说。。。

却转身而回家去。。。。。

我从2pm等到你5pm+。。。。。 足足的等了你两个小时多。。。。

I've been wait for you this long times but you.....

Duh!! It's enough now... I don't want to say it anymore...

It will only make us argue if I'm still say this much..

你在我心内的心声

不知不觉的...我们在一起差不多也要4个月了...

虽然我们总有吵架,亲热,高兴,伤心,吃醋,斗气的时候......

对我来说,是每个情侣都会平常发生的事..

我每次都遵守诺言,不说谎话的对待你,甚至上还很疼爱你....

但我很不明白...

为什么我们总是都会无意中吵了起来?

我想知道..我们之间到底是谁怒对方?还是双方的问题？

最近我也正在改变着了....

就算我被你气得要命...我也忍着口中的气来好好跟你谈天..

不管我多么不开心..我也是对你好好...

而且.....我也没有再跟你吵了吧....

但我希望你能知道...

我改变的原因是因为我爱你...我要跟你天长地久..也是因为我不想双方都不开心..

我也很希望你能知道我的感受...

就是当我很生气时,却要忍着那道气的辛苦...

因为我不想再去挨骂你...

我说这些并不代表我要"talk high bout my self"

这只是我不敢告诉你我的心声..