No one understand me....

It's been always alone by my self...
Even I have many friends and family with me....
But the feeling inside me... are yet still lonely....
Because no one can ever understand me...
The things I always do and say....
I did think for them before I say it..
Cause I scare I will hurt them...

My Father....
Ya.. He's a person that you can never imagine!!!
His attitude to me and mom... terrible bad!!!!
What he did is for his own!! But no one can see it...
It's been always... always...
Made mom and I very unhappy of him...
Cause he so like to argue when he's feeling nothing to do......
Those who know nothing about us... They keep complain about both me and my mom...
But my mom don't mind at all......
And I am having a little same as my mom...
It is too kind.. soft heart and easy get cheat...
Sometimes I really feel sad for my mom that she's having such husband!!
But she never regret... She never give up....
Right now.. What my mom doing is all for me... Cause she love me...
And ya.. Mom! I love you too...

And those lovers who I had before......
I always do all the best I can be...
But they don't care or mind at all....
Still... They are having other lover at outside...
It's hurt me deeply into my heart...
They always do something to hurt me....
But they will never admit what have they done.....

Still... When I'm always kind to all the people around me....
While I'm having a bad temper and "dirty words"..
They will say that "So this is the real you huh?"
They always never try to understand me.....
Then only look the bad side I'm having....
They don't even look the good side I'm having.....

Why?
Why no one can truly understand me?
I just need someone that can truly understand me.....
I don't wish to having such lonely life anymore...
I just want someone can really good to me and understanding me......