Sunday, December 11, 2011

又sem-break了~~

不知不觉... 一个sem又过了
试也考完了~ 而且现在也放假了..... 闷到~~
说实话... 在这间学校..我认识的朋友也超多的....
我也变了不少哦... :)
在中学建立了 MkBB...
在大学也建立了KNNBB哦 xD
跟大学的朋友关系也不错哦~ 哈哈...

除了某位先生... 讨厌到死... 不过也罢... 那种人做不做朋友都没关系.....
做了那么多东西竟然说"this is a mistake"
还每次在别人面前装可怜和创假故事... 还很喜欢做小人 -,-
哦算了... 说到这个人就心情不好.. 哈哈

在过多一个sem.. 我就毕业了.... 哈哈
时间还过得真快呀... :)

Thursday, November 10, 2011

又想起你

刚看见我的朋友... 他们是一对情侣...
吵架吵得很厉害和流泪.. 而且他们的起因都跟以前的我和你很相像...
不知不觉的我又再次的很想念你了..
希望在你冷的时候我可以给你温暖,
在你不舒服和不开心的时候我可以在你身边好好的照顾你,疼爱你 和 爱惜你

Friday, September 30, 2011

Boring and Tired

Feel nothing much to write recently..
Just feel so freaking tired in this semester -w-
And things are getting worst.... feel sad in this college

Friday, June 24, 2011

最近... 都很烦....
烦功课.. 烦考试..烦朋友... 烦家人..烦下个semester的课程怎样...
而且最近都没什么精神....也没什么胃口..真的很累...很累.....
我的头..真的很痛....很想安静的休息...等人来宠爱.....

我...希望可以躺在某人的肩旁.... 被疼爱.. 被照顾.....
我...很久没有那种感觉了.... 自己知道自己事.....
因为.....我知道这是不可能的.........
我只需要足够的休息... 少给我麻烦... 我就够了.....

Friday, June 17, 2011

Kisiao Assignments

Walaoooo...... just finish my assignment! OH MY GOSH!!!
Damn kisiao la weihhhh!! ><
Used 4days for rushing 2 assignments... Pastry and Food Comm..
and just now accidently delete my Food Comm Presentation files!! OH MY GOSH!!
I was very mad and feel so fuck up!!!!! ISHHH!!!
lucky Max Goh intro me the software which can retrieve the files...
Thanks to his help.. I AM ABLE TO RESTORE MY FILE!! HAHAHAHAHAHA~~~
have to go print it in college tomorrow.... and submit....
have to go binding some more.. T.T

ROARRRRRRR

Sunday, May 29, 2011

MkBB

It's been a while we never meet each other....
and yet.. we've date to go to DesaPetaling for Steamboat..
(for friends gathering... well just some of us.. not many -,-)

When I reach and the 1st moment I meet them...
I feels like... normal.. don't really feels anything...
Then I sit down... and quite.... very quite...
they have their jokes.. and they laughing... but..
I don't feel it is funny... I am still quite.. I don't even showing my expression... ==
and.. some of them are keep saying bad words....
and I keep thinking in my heart (Gosh!! Can't you just stop saying bad words?)
I feels very speechless when I'm with them.. but...
they are still like the old one... and I... changed?
Sigh....
Don't know... I just want to keep on the path I'm going... I don't wish to be the old me...
All I want.. is to improve!!

Monday, May 9, 2011

Changed...

This is the 3 or 4 weeks in College...
I felt I've totally became another person...
The way I think... is start from Positive way.. not Negative from the start anymore...
The way I talk.. hmm.. although is not really changed.. but still improved a bit.. =D
The way I study.. is not lazy like before anymore..
I'm even forcing my self to study for the WHOLE MIDNIGHT!!

*sigh*
I'm seriously sooooooooo tiring!
Even I don't have class.. but I'm still going to College.. Cause it's so happy to be there.. You will know when you are study there... It's a very happy place for all humanity.

Love my college..
Love my colleagues....

I have to hard working to improves my self...
I want to be a very good life in future... I want to change!!! change change change!!!

Monday, April 25, 2011

No turning BACK!!!

When I'm with my gangs..
I felt that I'm the greatest among my gangs... (MkBB)

But after I stepped my 1st step in my College Life...
And I felt that I'm just nothing....
I felt so lonely to walk this path...

"Panda" is the one who guide me to this path....
But he's not walking with me... Yet I felt so much stress and sadness....
They are speaking well in English... So self-abased....

Fortunately... I met those colleagues which is able to communicate to...
and the unfortunately,
I've been separated in group with those peoples which is unable to communicate..
The way they talk and the way they jokes... I'm totally doesn't feel interested ==

I've been cried over and over again...
Cause I really felt so suffer to walk this path..
And my parents.... I know they had been stressed for my study fees...
I love you.. mom dad... sorry....
And so I want to get a good result to repay them... I need to work hard in this path....
And there is no turning BACK!!!
I have to keep going...... ='(

Friday, April 15, 2011

Orientation Days

1st Day-
-Feels a little nervous when I'm there... for alone..
-Knew some friends..
-Nervous when Taking the English Test (Listening , Writing)
-Joined a group , Flickr. We're having almost 13 people +..
-Was having fun but I'm not really enjoying.

2nd Day -
-Knew MORE friends. =D
-Nervous when taking the English Test 2. (Speaking & Reading)
-Having fun and enjoy.
-Seriously TIRED!! LOL!!

3rd Day-
-Knew More and More friends...~~
-Feels happy when I've know my English level was in I level~
(But not really feels happy cause I've not good in my Grammar,Writing and Speaking)
-Know where's my class and managed my C&G time tables although I'm the only one with C&G
-Not really know what's our Drama about.. anyway we've did it lol?
-I've joined the Bowling Club~ =D
-Enjoyed and FUN!!
-Love my Colleague!!

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Change

Actually...
I've changed... a little? or perhaps I've changed a lot?
My mind.... and the way I think are different from before..

WELL....
Thanks to those who keep on support me and teaching me... =D

Seriously,I need to change much more better...
And from now on... I have to :
-Give a try to everything in my life and stop acting like a retarded / coward
-Think to a positive way to anythings / any case
-Improve my knowledge to pretend others by looking down me..

Blah Blah Blah....

Whatever it is~
The only thing I have to do is WORK HARD in my entire LIFE!!



-Buddha Bless-

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Pressure...

It's been awhile...
I'm keep thinking none stop about my "coming ways"
I felt so stress when I'm thinking about it...

Car test..
College life...
November test....
Coming assignments.....

Although it haven't get started...
But I'm still feel so nervous and stress......
I'm afraid I can't handle it...
Somehow, these days I feel chest pain..
Yet I have to take a deep breathe.... (Cause I'm hard to breathe)

Perhaps I'm a little exhausted....
Just need stay empty my mind...
Live my own way.....

-Buddha Bless-

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Old Blog

Haha!!
Just found back my previous blogs...
I felt I so funny and stupid when I'm small.. x3
Here's my previous blogs link... xD

http://raven93.blogspot.com/

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/raven93



Quiet a lot of memory....

Sunday, April 3, 2011

A New Thing I've learn.........

I've just argue with someone nasty(anger from love) in my life....
Made me feels to cry... and I told my friend,Alvin.

He told me......
no point crying
wasting ur time
the best way
don talk to him
ignore
let him feel guilty
if he did not realise forget abt it
if he do.
apologize
as simple as tat
u have dignity
u must control ur self :)
to prevent others by hurting u

This really the great way he teach me.....
And I've feel much more better....
Really thanks Man... Thanks Alvin..... =)



-Peace Out-

Saturday, April 2, 2011

New Begins

Finally....
I've put down the things which I have to put......
I've let you go... and put you down... (HELL YEAH!!!)
Well.... everything changed and everyone changed..
Times will not stop for anybody...

Duh!! Start college life soon....
I'm a little nervous.. T______T

Oh ya! Guess What?
I get a NEW PHONE!!! YEEEEEHAAA!! (Thanks Buddha)
Finally I'm able to use a SmartPhone!! LOL!!
I won't feel anymore bored when I'm outside or anywhere!!

Anyway.. As times goes by.....
I just need to change...
and start my Journey... and have a new begins.... =)



-Peace out-

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

No ones BIRD me when I'm down

When my friends are moody and down...
I used to accompany them and none stop fooling my self for making they laugh and happy...

But....

Where's my friends when I am moody and down?
They won't spit a single word to cheer me up.. or even care about me...
They just say they are busy.. blah blah blah....
All are just trying to ignore me...

Is true I am no more KID.
But I'm still an ordinary human... Well, HEY! I have sadness too...
Not only you guys have sadness... ALL of us do have feelings!!

Nah!! It's fine..
What I HAVE TO DO!! Is to change my self!!
And YEAH! Stop looking down on me!! (YOU FREAKING BITCH)

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Should I just let go of you....?

Recent days....
I don't feels to write about you anymore....
Or treat you good..
Cause I always used to treat you so far so kind and good...
But you just treating me cruel and cruel and crueler......
I feels tired... tired.. and tired....

Even it's not getting any benefits..
But I have no idea why am I still want to doing all goods to you...
(All the way I know is because I'm still love you)

I am really tired.....
I really need a rest...
I had tried my bestest of best on you... and for you....
Sorry if I'm not doing more to you.. Sorry........
Lastly... Hope you get wells all the time...
And the last time........ I love you....

If you feels sad or want to find me...
I am always very welcome!! =)

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Our Memory---001

If I'm not mistaken... that day.. was 2010 September 16th
I wanted to go Sunway Lagoon with my friends.. Yet I asked you but you don't want..
Cause you want to go roller with your friends..
I told you before don't go roller cause I'm not at your side and its dangerous for you...
But you don't hear what I said.....
Until 7pm something.... you SMS told me you hurt your arm bone while roller...
It frightened me until I feel so angry and sad... I was keep worry about you..
So I called you and talk with you..
also I've decided the next day(17th September 2010) want to go to your house... to see you... and take care of you.... as your lover... I must taking good care of you..
Cause I don't wish you will get hurt....
Until the next day I went to your home... and I overnight at your home...
I was keep looking at you... and hugging you... make you feel better...

Well.. the funniest things is.. You can't eat and take things...
But you can play PC and SMS... ==
It really make me so confuse that don't know you pain or not LOL..
but anyhow.. I must take care of you... cause I was deeply loving you..


Although we've break.... I also hope you're okay all the time..
I don't wish you hurt or sad...
If you're unhappy or moody... I hope you will find me....
Cause I really want to take care of you.....

Friday, February 25, 2011

Passed....

Everything pass...
Valentines.. I still plan to giving you a surprise..
But... seems like you don't like it...
I bought a Giant Teddy Bear... hope you will like it...
When I've told you it was Giant Teddy Bear..
You said... you don't like it.... it disappoint me... but it's okay....
Cause I don't want to show you my emotional anymore.... I just want to feel happy with you..
Until now... You seems like not hopping to contact with me anymore..
Everything just... just like getting far distance from me...
Feel so sorry to you... But you seems like still not believing me....
It's okay.... it's fine.... I'm alright..
I just wish everything bout you will be okay and happy....
It's okay even you're not caring me.. Cause..
I will still worry you and caring you..... as an Ex-Boy Friend...
You know I love you so much..... but.... *sigh* never mind.....
I miss you so much...... I'm seriously love you so deep...
I really wish... 1 day we will together again.....
God.... Please bless him with full holy and peace.. I just want him to be alright all the time....
There is no other reason for me to praying this...
But there is only 1 reason for this... is because I really love you...

Thursday, February 24, 2011

心事....

原来...在我的心情很差的时候...
是没有一个朋友可以让我安心的说心事.......
就算是好朋友... 我也不乘说过我的心事...
还记得我们在一起的时候... 我都是一直跟你说我的心事..
因为跟你在一起... 让我觉得很舒服.. 很安心...
直到现在我们分手了....
我还是偶然的信息或在MSN里跟你说我的心事.. (就算你也不回复我)
我身边重要的人都一个一个的失去了..
生活也开始越来越复杂了...
说真的.... 我很想像回以前那样... 紧紧地抱住你.....
过后再慢慢的跟你谈心事...
我... 真的很需要你....

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

我的路

我... 和我身边的朋友/同学...
感情说是很好... 但我们的世界和路..
绝对是不一样..... 我的一位好朋友(Panda)
他让我体会到.. 原来我的路是可以走得比他们更好..

而且..
我也知道...
如果我和我家人来跟朋友们相比.. 绝对是两个不同世界的人...
他们的路与我很大差别 , 也不适合我...
所以我为有选择我该走的路..

可能性是因为我父母太宠我的关系..
所以我才变得这么无才能..
因为一直以来他们都守护我和帮我出头之类的..
根本无法让我独立... 我真的不想继续做一只井底之蛙..
我很想真正的看看外面的世界... 和各种社会的人..
我也要找到适合我的路...

Monday, February 14, 2011

Valentine

I wish I'm able to celebrate with you..
I know it is impossible for both me and you too.....
You just wont accept a P anymore no matter what..
But I do love you so much...
And..
I will love u quietly...
All I wish is just want you to be happy...

Sunday, February 13, 2011

You never owe me

We're friend now...
It's okay even you're not going to be my lover anymore...
I really don't mind.. I just wish you will be happy...
But..
Now you said you owe me too much...
I didn't even think you owe me or you have to repay me..
and you say you will repay me everything you owe me...
Your words hurt me deeply....
You know I'm still loving u this deep.. how can you keep cruel to me... ><

All the reason I do was just because I love you deeply too much...
I have no idea the thing I doing is right or wrong..
All I know... love is love...
there is no wrong for loving a people.... and sacrifice for love..

Well...
If you really want to repay me.. THEN BE BACK MY LOVER!!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA~
sigh~ I know it's impossible....

I've done a lot of things for you..
Just because..
I love you...... HF..

Saturday, February 12, 2011

静静的爱着你

你不断地说你不想再做P...
我也不想再烦你或强逼你跟回我在一起了.....
因为我知道我这样做只会给你带来烦恼和压力...
所以我想通了...
如果你真的不想再跟我一起....
我也愿意的继续爱着你...守护着你....疼你..
可能我对你做的一切你不会感动..
但我真的很想继续的爱着你和照顾你....
而且....
我要静静的爱着你........
我实在太爱你了...
以前对你不好... 所以才会搞成这样的地步......
所以现在就算不能跟你复合..
我也要好好的对待你...
我真的很想对你加倍的好....

Thursday, February 10, 2011

我不想放弃你....

跟你做会朋友了....
但我还是一样很希望你能给我一次机会跟你复合...
我每天都一直问你可不可以和我再回一起..
可你的答案是不能...
我知道我一次又一次的问同样的问题..
而你也是一次又一次的给同样的答案...
虽然你的答案会伤我心......
但我不想放弃你...
因为我知道你就是我的真爱.. 我的一切....
我真的很爱你...我真的很希望能跟你在回一起.....

而且.. 都怪我自己不好.... 以前都是我自己拿来衰..
每次都把我们恩爱的感情搞破坏..
我真的很后悔... 我真的知错了.....
说实话.... 我也为你改了不少...
自从跟你分手后... 我的人真的反省了不少...
让我体会到你的感情... 还有我的过错...
所以我没算是做到你最好的老公..

但如果你真的愿意让我们再回一起....
我答应你... 我会非常非常努力的对你更加好....
原因.. 都是我太爱你了...
所以不想放弃你... 你是我的所有...
我爱你......

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

怀念在一起的我们...

我刚看了这..........
很有意思的note...

一个男生真的爱你的时候

-他不会冷落你超过三天,因为想念你的日子很难度过

-他会给你一个甜蜜的称呼,只属于他一个人喊的称呼 ,即使你有时不喜欢,但这也是爱你的一种!

-他会把你当孩子般宠爱,但是自己又说不出宠你的原因~

-他会让你开心快乐,不会带给眼泪

-24小时为你开机,随时随地让你能够找到他

-他会觉得你是最好的,不会将你和其他女人做比较,即便你并不优秀

-他会抽出时间来陪你,即使自己真的很忙,因为他看不见你会很想你

-他不会要求你减肥,因为他会把你的身体健康看作第一位

-他会很想和你生活在一起,会把你看成是生命中最重要的

-他会经常紧紧地抱着你,让你感受他的心跳

-他会在你睡着的时候轻轻吻你,因为你是他的天使

-他会给你买你喜欢的东西,并且很高兴陪你逛街

-他会默默地为你付出一切,但很少让你知道他所做的牺牲

-他会看你吃饭的时候傻笑,然后把好吃都留给你吃,那怕他只喝汤,心里也会很高兴。

-他会不厌其烦提醒你吃饭,穿衣服,听你烦了,他还是要提醒你,因为你生病就是对他最大的伤害。

-他会记住你说的每句话,哪怕是一句小玩笑,他也会放心里。然后努力改变自己的生活习惯。

-他会只对你一个人好,虽然他身边的朋友说他重色轻友,但是如果他朋友出事,他也会像担心你一样担心他们。所以不要说他不够义气。

-在你过马路的时候会紧张的拉着你的手,怕你横冲直撞出什么事,所以你不要甩开他的手。

-他的手机里都是关于你的东西,想你的时候会对着手机傻笑,回忆美好的幸福!!

『珍惜』身边的他/她!不要伪装自己的想法,爱要大声说出来……




HF.... 我相信..... 我们在一起的时候...我也有做过以上大部分的东西吧.....
当我看了这个note... 第一时间.. 就让我想起了我们在一起的时候....
而且...我也傻笑了... ^^
真的很怀念以前在一起的我们....

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

同性恋...

不管你是爱男或女,年龄大小距离
也是爱...
真正爱一个人... 它不一定要是男或女...
就如同性恋... 总是被歧视..
男同性,女同性.... 也是人啊...
只是性方向不一样... 不代表没有开花结果....
爱就是爱... 爱一个自己爱的人.. 是没有错的!!
而且也对得起自己的良心... 更不需要向别人交待....
不需要更复杂的理由去解释.. 因为爱就是爱...




有兴趣的话..
请按以下的link =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WWZFlV8c79A

Sunday, February 6, 2011

你终于理会我了.....

你终于理会我了... ><
虽然你对我瞒冷的.....
但是我真的心满意足了....
我只希望还能继续的关心你和照顾你....或是疼你><
我们做朋友也无所谓... 我真的不敢对你再要求多多了...
我真的很害怕会又再次的失去跟你联络~ T ___T

但...............
如果真的可以的话..
我很希望你能给我第二次机会...让我再好好的照顾你><
我真的会对你更好... 而且我也知错了... 我真的怕了..

Thursday, February 3, 2011

我是个很注重爱情的人

之前...你说只是爱我少少...
过了几天后... 你就说你很爱我了...


然后到了上次你跟我说其实你根本就不爱我...
几个小时后你又说你是爱我的..


过了一阵子后...你跟我说你从来没爱过我...
没多久后你又跟我说其实你是很爱我....


现在你又说你没有以前那么爱我了...


我真的很搞不懂你的脑袋在想些什么!!
一时一样...而且我不是你的玩具!! 请别一次又一次的玩弄我!!!
每次我都对你那么认真... 可你却一次又一次的戏弄我...
而且还是一次又一次的伤害我...
如果你没打算跟我发展下去的话.. 我真的很不希望你会浪费我们的时间...
而且如果你是爱你的KC 或什么 Kelvin 的话.. 你滚去一边... 我不是他们的代替品!!!
我要的是一个对我好的宝贝老婆......
你不注重爱情.. 但我很注重我的爱情关系!!
因为我已经失去以前的一切....
所以我努力的把我自己变得更好.... 所以我更需要一个美好的恋爱...
而不是玩玩下的感情!!



HF:
唉~但是如果你可以在给多我一次机会让我们从新来过...
我真的可以做得比以前更好...

Saturday, January 29, 2011

我很后悔当初毁灭这段感情的我....

虽然我跟他说我已经对你没感情了....
但事实上我还是很爱你... 根本就不可能那么容易对你没感情..
因为我们的感情发展的太好了...
就是因为当时我的冲动和不好..... 而毁灭了我们之间的关系...
我真的很后悔...
好好的一段感情..... 就那样被我摧毁了...
我真的很难过.... 直到现在... 我还是一样的爱你.....
虽然我已经没什么找你... 但我还有偶尔的打听你的消息....

我知道.....
就算我们在回一起的话....你的父母一定不会赞成让你跟我这种人在一起..
而且..你也不可能打算跟回我在一起吧...

我还记得...
我们之间发生过很多事.....
开心..悲伤..愤怒..和嫉妒....
说真的...如果认真地去想..其实我们是很合配的.... > <

唉~
我真的很想你.......
我很希望你可以原谅我... 就算你不打算跟我复合...
我也希望你能跟我做个朋友...