My families..

In my Dad's side family...
Most of them are very good in study...
Good scores and a lot of Grade A.
They are gentle speech and refined behavior..
Good in gaining money as well..

In my Mom's side family....
Most of them are very worst in study..
Low scores and bad Grade..
They are rude and vulgar language..
Not gain much money but a little shining star in their heart...

In my study level... I can tell that I'm just "half water"
Mean worst but not too worst... but still is worst (LOL)
I still can't works in the age right now..
I can't even get a good grade in my exams.....

Still, I'm having SPM on this year...
Duh!! I'm 90% sure that once i failed in my SPM!!
And my dad's side family some of them will "look down" on me...
But my mom's side family most of them will still cheer me up no matter what.... =)

I believe that many people will think that I'm having a bad attitude..
And they will think I'm a bad guy.. Gangster.. Bla this and bla that~
But what they seeing is the only surface..
They will never know the kind that hidden in the very bottom of my heart..
Only my mom's mother(外婆) understand and knowing me much more than the others...

Indeed. My dad side's of my cousins...
Some of them seems really good to me.... (surface)
But I know what are they trying to do on me...
I know it even they're trying to keep in silence...
And so I always told my mom about it... I will never tell my dad...
Because...
He will only keep say he's side family damn fucking good!!!
And he will only keep say mom's side family so damn fucking annoying..
Still, he keep say how bad is mom's side family members..
He just keep complaining on my mom's side family...
He didn't even trying to complain about his side's family...
I most remember one things that he said to me and mom...
"Of course my side's family most good la!!
All original things!! Not private!! Mom's side family leh?
Always the things that don't want to use anymore
then give it to us.. even give us...
It's also cheap things and private!!"

Hey dad!! How the hell that you can say something like this!!
Do you know what will mom feel if you say so?
Yes!! I admit that your side's family are very rich indeed!!
But don't forget those things are theirs!! Not yours!!
You are even different from em' all!!
You are not as rich as them!!! You are even worst than em'!!
You are much more rude than they all!!
You are a fucking bad husband to mom and you was a failure dad!!!!
You don't even taking good balance for both side family!!
Your selfishness make both me and mom unlike you!!
But you are damn lucky!! Because of my mom too kind..
That's why she will still be good to you no matter what..

Dad!! Try and use your fucking brain to think!!!
You are having a son and a good pretty kind wife...
You don't have to x at the outside (private case)
I act like nothing doesn't mean I don't know what you did at the outside!!!

Tsk... Anyhow..... I will only caring my SPM results right now...
Hardworking on it... even if I'm getting low scores and Grade....
I won't care how they "looking down" on me!!
Live my own way!! My target is just to take care of my mom and my lover in my life!!!
That's all!!!

The "taste" in our relationship

We together almost 5 months.
We tried sour,sweet,bitter,salt and spicy life in our relationship..
We also go through a lot of life experience.
We have been cried.. laugh.. angry.. sad and jealous.. to each other...

Firstly,
There is a part of memory I will never be forgotten.
It is about them... Christian.. (Cause of my lover are christian)
It's about their rules..
Because there is one of their rules... I am not able to be with my lover...
And they keep trying to tier us off. How cruel are they...
You guys keep said that we can't be together is because this is a rule of christian that sign by god.
Then the hell I am going to tell you right now!
Love mean Love. God will never tier off a part of true lovely couple.
And yet!! We are not doing bad things!!
So stop tier us a part... It's meaningless for you all..

Secondly,

You always follow your own way to do your things.

You will with friends and leave me alone.

Cause you said "I am still able to be live even I am without you" (Hurt when heard this)

My friend (Panda)..

He told me not to be so caring about you...

Have to put off you too... And try letting you to do whatever you want to do..

I will only get hurt if I too caring about you..

So..... I follow his way to treat you..

It's work well a lot..

Lastly,

The every time I seek sweet and salt for us...

But the every time you take sour and spicy in to our relationship...

Indeed. I will be very angry when you are doing spicy for me..

So I will sit down and think properly in my heart......

The 1st things it come out... Its telling me "The important that you are happy".

Sweetheart... I will still keep trying to be the greatest husband in your life... I swear.

And I will be the one most take care of you in your life too..

Horrible moment in School

This is the worst case ever in my school's life.
I never imagine that such things will happen in our school.
Even me, I'm also get frightened. Maybe I was as timid as a mouse.


So,the story start like this.....
Today,while all the students are in the assembly during the singing "Wilayah Persekutuan"
All of the Form 3 girl shout in a sudden.
Because one of them were suddenly seems like crazy and she's out of control.
And don't know why are she sitting down on the floor.


Then our school's assistant go on the stage and told us faster get back into our classrooms.
We all go back to our own classes and have to move faster.
After go up floor.. and reach our class..
We stand outside the corner and look down the assembly..
We saw one of our teacher ..
We can't see properly...
But....
As we can see.. She seems like she is crying and so sad...
Many teachers surround her and keep cheer her up..
Meanwhile, She fainted... (Hope she will be okay now)


Soon...
We heard many class also having girls screaming...

And we are very sure it's about that "thing" again...

At that moment I was very afraid...

I keep stick with my friends.. and keep hugging my bag.....

Meanwhile..

Teacher ask all of us to go down hall..

After went to the hall....

We separate for 2 lines.. 1 line for muslim students.. and 1 line for non-muslim students..

After 10 or 15 minutes something...

Teacher allow us(non-muslim) to go back home...

It's really a such horrible moment / day in our school...

Maybe I can't write well here...

But it is true that damn scary when it's happening in the reality..